lbd: lazy butt disease

my coworker told me about LBD today. that's ... lazy butt disease. there is finally a name for those without drive and ambition.

i struggle between the half of me that wants to avoid LBD, and the half of me that wants to avoid being so career driven that i don't leave time for other things. so i'm focusing on getting busy doing some work, but doing some work that won't necessarily further my career.

i've gotten back to the weight watchers, with a much more serious focus than i've given over it the last few years. and i'm happy to report a really successful week.

i've started going to church again (at revolution NYC). and it really gives me a message to focus on for the week that brings me to a positive place. it's like grace has shone down upon me. it's pretty awesome.

i've stopped drinking more than a glass of wine at a time, thereby no longer wasting entire saturdays or sundays trying to recover. consuming fewer calories. AND saving money.

i'm planning for 2010, too. the 10's are going to be way better than the 00's. the 00's have been a strong learning experience. many of the things i put myself through have changed me for the better, and i've discovered all over again that i am tough as nails.

i still cry when i get angry, and i get frustrated. but i am totally able to express that now, instead of pretending like i'm ok. i'm learning to let go.

and with that - i am balancing LBD and WTB. that would be way too busy.